I felt it would be a good idea to write a post about myself to give my readers a better understanding of my writing perspective, ideology, and beliefs. As we all know, a blog is meant for personal expression and I believe everyone has right to their opinion so feel free to disagree with any of my topics. You can do this by commenting and starting a discussion – I just please ask that we always be respectful and mindful of our words.
My name is Allyssa Guerin. I’m 23 years old and I was born and raised in Dracut, MA, right outside of Lowell. I was raised in a loving family including my compassionate mother, hard-working father, and a sister. We didn’t grow up with everything we wanted but we did grow up with a lot more than other people. I was definitely a rebellious brat filled with envy during my teenage years wanting above my families means BUT I can reflect now and be grateful for everything I did have at the time- including a home that wasn’t updated but was always warm and filled with our toys, clothes, and food; a boat that wasn’t huge but big enough for our family to share countless weekends on enjoying quality time with each other; and a family dog that always kept us busy and compassionate.
As I slowly moved through my adolescent years, I felt like I didn’t really fit in with the people around me. I felt like the things that were important to other people didn’t have the same effect on me. I found myself doing what everyone else was doing simply because I wanted to have friends and fit in, not because I genuinely enjoyed it. I made some not so smart decisions that could of seriously jeopardized my safety and health only for the approval of my peers. I feel like this probably happens to almost everyone at this age, because let’s be real – who really knows what they want and who they want to be at 15 years old?? We tend to just go with crowd because it’s easier than taking the time to think about who we want to be and what we want out of life. I am grateful every day that I somehow made a right turn that lead me to where I am today and not down a more treacherous road. Although these times sometimes felt like the end of the world to a 15 year old girl in the 21st century, I do believe there is a purpose for everything in life and I truly believe that every step I have ever taken has and will lead me to exactly where I am supposed to be in the future.
By senior year of high school, I moved away from the things and people that were pressuring me and found myself surrounded by people that fit into the life I genuinely wanted at that time. These people stood with me through one of the most distressing situations which affected myself and my family greatly. Thank you. Two of these people are still my best friends today (shout out to you two). Most of these people I still love and enjoy spending time with but unfortunately sometimes life pulls you apart for unknown reasons and time spent together becomes shorter and more spread apart.
On November 11, 2011 I lost my father through extremely traumatic circumstances. It pressed my emotional relationships, it dwindled my faith, and it made me slightly cynical towards life. The next few years were tough for me. I took my anger out on my family and the people around me. I self medicated and gained a negative outlook on life. I skipped school, I lost respect for authorities (which sometimes was well deserved), and I lost my ambition. I forgot who I was and what I stood for. I started to follow the crowd again. I barely graduated high school in 2012. I say barely because I had over 70 tardies, probably around 20 skipped detentions for my tardies, and close to 50 absences. I previously had goals of attending a four-year college away from the small town of Dracut but by the time I was supposed to start preparing to apply to colleges – I couldn’t care less.
“I mean that they should not play life, or study it merely, while the community supports them at this expensive game, but earnestly live it from beginning to end. How could youths better learn to live than by at once trying the experiment of living?” – Henry David Thoreau “Walden” 1854
In my opinion, the best thing I (or anyone who doesn’t know what they want to do) could of done after high school was take some time to figure out who I am and what I want. To reflect on what happened to me and how I reacted. To travel and experience the world in real life versus a text book. To live genuinely without peer pressures. To personally develop myself with genuine positivism and kindness. But my counselors in high school basically told me I would be a failure if I didn’t go to college right after high school. They pressured me to go and do something I had no desire to do. Why can’t these people realize that they can’t push their ideas on youth? You would think as a counselor they would be trained to listen and find the specific and unique path for each of their pupils…
I started at Middlesex Community College as a criminal justice major with a psychology focus. Hated criminal law but I did learn a lot from my psychology classes. Summer of 2013 was when my life really started to change. I was introduced to a network marketing business that supported a happy, healthy, and wealthy lifestyle. For the first time in my young life, I felt like this community of people and ideology really resonated with me. I learned how to question authority respectfully, how to create a life different than the social norm. I learned that if you want more than average you have to BE more than average. I learned how to fail and keep moving forward. I learned how to deal with rejection. I learned that people are going to try to convince you that doing something different is wrong. I learned so much about life and how it works, that it’s difficult to put into words. My biggest take-away has to be that life is what YOU make it. If you think negatively and think bad things will happen – bad things happen. If you think positively and think good things will happen – good things happen. It is your choice. YOU HAVE THE POWER. This has been proven over and over again through my personal life. I give a lot of credit for this mindset and way of thinking to one documentary and book series. “The Secret” had given me the building blocks in believing in creating a beautiful life for myself. Further research justified everything I believe today.
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“You can create anything you want, but to do that you must follow the principles of the law. Eliminate all doubt and replace it with the full expectation that you will receive what you are asking for. If you are not receiving what you are asking for, it is not the law that has failed. It means that your doubt is greater than your faith. ” – Rhonda Byrne “The Secret”
I started my second year at MCC with a different mindset. I had so much I wanted to do and felt like I had so much ability to get everything done. But at school I was very limited. I felt very pressured to conform to the system which I didn’t agree with. By the end of my last semester, I made a bold decision to stop. I felt like school was more restricting than it was uplifting, for me at least. I saw that by adding value to society, I would inevitably be wealthy. Society didn’t need another valuable employee. Society needs people that are willing to step away from the system we are pressured to conform to. Society needs people that will think differently and question everything we were raised on. Well here I am!
From that point on, I felt a lot of personal pressure because I knew my failure or success was completely dependent on me. I couldn’t blame anything on school or on my teachers. Although I knew every failure would lead me closer to inevitable success, it isn’t easy to be positive ALL the time. It takes a long time. It’s been almost 3 years since I’ve adapted this mentality and I’m still not positive 100% of the time. But all I do know is, ever since I have made the choice to change my life, my life has changed. Even after the ridicule I got for not getting a degree, I am happy with my decision. Now I absolutely love what I do! I am happy every single day going to work knowing that I am helping people and supplying a valuable service to society. I hustle now yet know that I will be financially free in the future. I don’t want or need a lot of money, I need happiness and freedom.
This post became a lot longer and more in depth than I anticipated, so I will cut it short with this. I’m not perfect. No one is. I’m bad a grammer (which you probably already figured out), I still have doubt, I have a temper/attitude at times, and I may be a little stubborn. Aside from that, I love myself, I love my life, I am grateful for everything and everyone in my life, I am hopeful for my future 90% of the time, I believe in good people and know things will turn out how it is supposed to. I’m not writing this blog to show off what I know, I’m writing it to share my ideas and thoughts with the world. To inspire others to create their own life the way they want it to be. Everyone has a special gift to give to the world. It’s up to you to dig deep and find that gift. Find your passion and do it. When you focus on how you can make yourself a better person and how you can help others – that is when you will start to see dramatic change in your own life. But be patient. Have faith that your actions will pay off. Don’t do things for a reward, do things because they make your soul happy. Make the choice to be happy – or don’t. But just know that it is your choice. Stop being a victim and take responsibility for your life. Don’t argue with someone to conform them to your ideas – listen to their perspective and try to understand why they think that way. Don’t use violence to get what you want, use love and positive thoughts. Don’t take my word for it – research and educate yourself. Teach yourself what you want to know – don’t just trust what others tell you. Have your own unique thoughts and opinions, whether they are common or not. The world we live in is different than the one our parents live in so why would we do what they did? We need to admit what we don’t know and embrace life with an open mind. And when more people do this, I think that is when we will see a dramatic change on a global level. I’m merely trying to create a ripple. Make your own ripple.
“Train your mind to see the good in everything. Positivity is a choice. The happiness of your life depends on the quality of your thoughts.”
— Allyssa Guerin